Throughout my life, there’s been a consistent objective to balance the warrior energies of my natal sun in Aries (warrior, pioneer, daredevil) with my natal moon in Libra (lover, diplomat, peacekeeper, musician), unknowingly and knowingly. In my earlier phases of life, the warrior was much more pronounced and the heart-centered diplomat was grossly overshadowed and undervalued.
When my daughter was born the pendulum started to shift over the ensuing 14 years to the point where the peacekeeper was in complete control and the defensive and assertive warrior was locked up in the basement mainly because I was afraid of him playing the role of dad to my little girl.
At the same time I dove deeply into my inner world of emotions and became spiritual and focused my attention on dissolving my ego which led me to the point where I literally had to let go of my attachments to everything that I loved.
It’s been a path filled with its share of deep suffering and left me in a place where I needed to bring the warrior back into the leadership role in order to set boundaries, take action and love myself in spite of losing the most significant parts of my ego that made me feel like me. My self worth took a major blow and I needed my Aries sun sign to pick me up from under the doormat where my Libra moon sign left me due to keeping the peace at all cost to avoid conflict.
In relationships, I’ve found that if I’m not feeding Aries and I’m not asserting myself out in the world in whatever way my fire wants to express itself, my confidence takes a hit and the relationship starts to lose polarity. This can be felt as minor shifts in feeling loved or unloved and it’s an early warning signal to get out in the world and feed my fire, assert myself, conquer something, pave a new trail, lead something that lights me up, lift weights, etc.
By taking responsibility for feeding my sun sign, which in turn feeds my confidence, I am taking responsibility for whether or not I will feel the passion and fire within my intimate relationship or not. It’s a delicate balancing act and is a major assignment that I am here to tackle within this lifetime. Luckily, Lorelei understands these dynamics as well and we can communicate through the dance in a graceful manner.
Nick
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